“Going Deeper with God” Pt 3:
Chris and I began our pastoral ministry in a Southern Michigan church with 27 people attending the first Sunday. We were told spend one year there, gain some experience and was promised we’d be moved to another church with this one being closed. This seemed like a “can’t lose situation.” Chris was 18 years old as we started this venture together. She grew up in a pastor’s home, and I felt she was more equipped for ministry than me.
Within a few months we attended a pastor’s conference where I learned about three basic needs every person has and those three needs became the foundation or our ministry we still build on today. The needs? Every person has a desire to be “LOVED, ACCEPTED, and NEEDED!” We weren’t exactly sure how to implement these three things, but asked God to help us practice them with every person we met until they became a lifestyle.
Soon our little church was full of people making it necessary to purchase land and build a new facility. In less than a year, the new building was full and I became very anxious. Actually, afraid. I thought about resigning. While building the new church building, we also built a new parsonage (church owned home) on the same property. Unable to sleep, in the middle of the night I walked over to the church and walked through the dark building guided only by the exit lights. Lying face down on the floor between the first pew and altar, I had a talk with God.
Beginning to cry, I thanked Him for the growth of the church then admitted, “God, the congregation is getting bigger than I know how to handle. I’m not sure what to do and feel I need to walk away!” God was patient. He let me speak, weep, and talk until I ran out of things to say.” All was quiet as I laid in the darkness on the sanctuary floor. It was then He spoke, not audibly, but there was no question, the Lord was speaking.
“Gerry, this is what I’ve been trying to teach you. Give Me your life, your family, your possessions, and your church. I’m your Savior, but I want to be the Lord of your life.” God assured me that night, it wasn’t my church but his. If I’d surrender everything that was important to me, He will bless and give guidance. I never became perfect, and still mess up from time to time, but on that night, God filled my heart with His Spirit and my life was changed.
That’s my personal explanation of the “Spirit – filled” life. Admitting you can’t be what God truly wants you to be on your own. “Helper,” is a description of the Holy Spirit. I needed help that day and even now seek the filling of His Spirit every morning. Total surrender is giving God everything and allowing Him to be first in your life. As followers of Christ, you and I are challenged just as the early disciples were at Pentecost. They could not take the Gospel to the world under their own power. They returned to Jerusalem and prayed. After a period of time, they were filled with power, courage, energy, and carried out the mission of spreading God’s Word. We are Christians today because of their obedience. Who will become new believers because of your and my obedience?
What are you hanging onto? What have you not surrendered to the Lordship of Christ? Have you felt a struggle or thoughts about what you can’t do? God has sent His Spirit to fill you and that filling comes by complete surrender of all things pertaining to your life. The Holy Spirit is you constant “Helper” in everything you do.
Pastor Carnes